preacher boy A. D. Casstevens i cried for you today sometimes the reality of it all just hits me you’re there i’m here we’re nothing not even really friends - now just acquaintences i once felt something from your side & not just mine but time & space - distance have closed me off from you you held my hand - held me but only because we were dancing you looked - really looked at me but only because we were too close you took me out for coffee was it only because you were tired? you complimented me was it only for compensation? you woke me up but only because i asked you you stood next to me in the pew were we as companions for only a day? you hugged me goodbye but only because i hugged you you smiled at me was it only because it was expected? we’ve never kissed we’ve never exchanged hearts but i did love you, seriously - deeply do i still? did you ever have you ever will you ever? i’m too far away from myself or too close to myself to know if i can ever get back to anything close to what you need i was headed there but now it seems too far away -to see-to glimpse -to hold-to grasp we’ve never rested on each other we’ve never exchanged our whole lives then why do i still cry over you? |